long time

it took me a long time to write here ulit. its not that i dont want to or anything. its just that no one ever reads this blog. konti lang may alam na i actually blog even those close to me dont know about it. were friends, tight shit and all that, but there was only too much for other people to know about you. do i really want them to read my innermost thoughts and craps? i did. once. but they kept on putting different meanings on my posts rather than take it literally. lagi pa may tanong na, ok ka lang? madrama ka naman! ano? di ko na gets yun? <-- i dont expect them to. i dont want to have to explain myself to them when i was not even sure if i wanted to share it with them in the first place.
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There's Never Enough Time To Do All The Nothing You Want. -Calvin and Hobbes

death

peachy's lola died a few weeks back. this is the first time that i'll be writing about it. i dunno why. i guess its because, i was finally given a glimpse from the other point of view. i didnt know what to say to her. it was terrible to want so much to help, when really, i could do nothing. there were no words. i felt a little paralyzed by my own inadequacy.
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There's Never Enough Time To Do All The Nothing You Want. -Calvin and Hobbes

a few weeks ago...

a few weeks ago...

do you walk around in circles knowing that you are lost but never admitting it otherwise.. staring blankly at a map trying to figure out the way back but you don’t know where to start. i’m at that point in my life. i need my way back. I was much too far out all of my life..

... looking at the last line, i said the same thing to my friend kiel last year. =(